Thursday, August 21, 2008
Changes abound
Well, after five years of practicing in Maryland and spending 34 years here, I'm picking up and moving. I accepted a position in Greenville, North Carolina. Please tell me I'm not crazy. At the moment, I feel like the little girl from the Exorcist. Yikes. I have to be there by September 22nd.
I drove down and arrived in NC at 230 in the morning on Friday, napped, interviewed for about 3.5 hours, drove to Raleigh for dinner, got lost more than once trying to find Route 264, went 40 miles to0 far south, got up at 530 on Saturday because I was floored how right it all felt, drove home, spent the day with the Bickersons (aka my parents who by the way are finally happy after 40 years) in Northern VA looking at condos they couldn't afford and spending more time in the car, drove to a friends, caught up with and finally, got home at 11:00 on Saturday night. Whew was I in overload. But I had not time to think, it was just act.
So, around comes Monday. Sheer anxiety and panic. What if I said something wrong, what if I did something wrong, maybe I should have worn nylons but damn I couldn't find anywhere to get them on my way to the courthouse, what if they couldn't understand my Baltimore lingo, etc. etc. etc. I was an absolute mess but all of that on top of, what the hell am I thinking picking up and moving! But honestly, the time is write and its with a wonderful group of people.
I'm so jinxing myself here but I can't believe how things are falling into place. On Tuesday morning, the offer came about 30 minutes before I needed to be in court and I've been up and running ever since! I think I have an apartment lined up, the movers are coming Tuesday, I'm dealing with the landlord issue at my current place, the separation agreement has been returned without any changes, I gave notice to work, doctors appointments are scheduled, car is going to the mechanic tonight for new tires, etc. etc. etc. I am trying to keep the multiple lists to a minimal but we all know how that goes. My goal is to work from one notebook but lord knows, I'm the queen of lists. Oh well, I'm just going to keep plugging at it. My fingers, toes, legs, arms, and at times, my eyes are crossed that things continue as smooth.
I may be MIA for a bit but once I settle in NC - where I don't know very many people - I'm sure that I will be better at write. In the meantime, I'm hoping to keep up a steady jog as opposed to sprinting to the end of this marathon.
Friday, August 8, 2008
Debates? Disagreements? Opinions?
This status was shown on Facebook by Michael Caputo. Michael is an analyst with Minnesota Public Radio.
I honestly have so much to write about this statement that I don't know where to start. So, for now, I am going to head out to meet Michael and get a tour of the station ands talk to him about his thoughts on it.
In the meantime, I'd love to hear anyone elses thoughts.
PS. Today's fabulous shoe is yet to be determined. But, all in due time!
Thursday, August 7, 2008
What's Missing?
Monday, July 28, 2008
Walking In Someone Else's Shoes
For me, I had never attended a viewing or funeral for a child. And to be honest, I waffled back and forth about going. With the help of a couple of friends, I realized I had no choice. I needed to go - even if I could help out in some way with the logistics - Heather and her family needed all the support they could get.
Talking with Heather, her mom, her family and friends, I realized that Christopher made them all truly happy and that each of them has been able to hold to it. Even at this time of loss for them, you could see their happiness coming through. Though they may not know it yet, I honestly believe that they have all started to heal. The fact that the happiness was able to be seen through such a time of sorrow was amazing. In some people you never see happiness even at the best of times, yet even in this situation, they were able to laugh and smile about their relationship with Christopher. So, thank you to each of you for making me think, making me reconsider things, and helping me to see and feel the happiness you got from raising Christopher. I consider it an honor to have been touched by Christopher's life.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Tiptoeing in Ballet Slippers
After having been one to comment on other's blogs for so long, I decided it was time to give up my pen and paper (my pens were always missing thanks to the cats knocking them under the couch) and give this a shot myself.
I struggled to figure out an appropriate name, background setting, and personal description. But after struggling through that, I realized that I actually had to write my first post.
This thought was daunting. Should the first post be prolific? Interesting? Broad in scope? Intuitive? Stimulating? All I could think about is how am I going to write about myself. Will I be able to accept the comments that are posted. But then I realized, it’s just like walking into a room full of people you’ve never met - I introduce myself to you without the typical hot flashes I have from worrying about tripping over the microphone wires.
So, here goes....
I'm a 34 year old professional that has been reassessing my life and the choices I've made.
I've spent a lot of time over the past 20 months thinking about what I want out of life; how and why I am where I am; why at times I've let circumstances (though often good) dictate my choices; who really is important and my life; why I surround myself with certain types of people; why I can't get my butt to the gym more often; why I misinterpreted what I thought was happiness; why I was willing to settle for less than happiness; how I am going to deal with my parents relocating back to the area after 13 years; why I was scared to make certain decisions; how I can be proud not only achieving certain goals but also about the small steps that I take to reach those goals; how to take calculated risks; and well, this list could continue for a while.
Its been an amazing 20 months with both ups and downs. I'm sure many of my future posts will reflect on these experiences and how they have helped me to grow and learn more about myself and the people in my life.
I don't have a particular agenda in connection with setting up the blog but hope that I will be able to just be myself (and yep, that includes my silly, somewhat confused by really easy jokes, self). Oh and of course, I hope to be able to learn out how to walk without stumbling in my stilettos.
So, for today, I'm tiptoeing ever so lightly in a cute pair of ballet slippers. Given my choice, I would love to be wearing the cute little Kate Spade ones shown above.